Right now I am thinking about a lot of stuff. I don't want to COMPROMISE who I am but at the same time, I want to be open to what the Lord is showing me. I have to make sure that any life changes I make is NOT to please other people. So you can pray for me, I need it. I have lots of burning questions that I thought I had resolved but now I realize that there is still so much I am not sure about. Time will tell and God will show me, I know He will! God is trying to show me something and I am just not totally sure what it is. Some of it is obvious but the rest is still a mystery. I look forward to talking to my friend Tiffany. She will help me through this, I know it and I trust her because I know she prays for me. I need to see the light right now so bad!!

I have tried to do things today and tonight to preoccupy my mind so I won't think about the struggle I am feeling but so far nothing is working. I need to get on my knees and cry out to God because He is the only one that can help me through this. My entire life I have struggled with people pleasing and right now if I make a decision to change my blog, change my attitude, change my way of thinking, it will only be to please people. I have to do it to please my Heavenly Father and no one else! I don't know if I am meant to do be doing what I am doing.

Anyway, I am going to bed and Jeremy is waiting on me so we can talk. Also, Ava Beth has 102 fever and just threw up! FUN!

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