Since moving a little over a year ago, I have been a little lonely. Our last home was directly across the street from my best friend. We built across the street from one another on purpose. While I totally love my new house, new neighborhood and new community, I have yet to connect. Meeting new people used to be fun, exciting and fulfilling to me. Now it is more of a pain! I know what you are thinking. Not a very good attitude to have! I'm good at being a Mom and a wife but I lack some serious skills in maintaining my friendships. It's work and right now I am at a place where I don't feel like I have energy to give to anyone else except those that I already have a foundation with. My family, a couple of girlfriends and that's it. So, I don't really try anymore. I find that I am changing a lot. I am much more content with having a few to spend time with and that's it. In a few short months I will be the mother of three children and I am quite sure that will take up pretty much all of my spare time. :)And I am okay with that. It's just sometimes I think maybe I am not okay with just knowing a few people around here.

Honestly, I am very lonely. I am not sure what is realistic anymore, all I have to go off of is what I had when I lived in my old house. The thing I had that I don't have now is a phone ringing off the hook, an inbox full of invites and a buddy to drive to the mall with or exchange recipes with. Now I have to take both kids to the OB appointments with me, hair appointments and much more. It was nice having someone to switch off with for important errands. I miss that and so much more.

The Lord knows my heart and He knows how lonely I have been. So a few months ago, he sent me a friend. I would love to tell you that she lives in my cul-de-sac, in my city or even across town but she doesn't. In fact, we have never met face to face. She came to my blog one day and commented and instantly I knew I liked this girl. I talk to her almost every single day and sometimes two and three times a day. I don't have to try hard to convince her of anything, I don't have to be anyone else but myself and I can pretty much say ANYTHING and trust that she knows my heart! It was an instant connection spiritually, emotionally, etc. But it was not a geographic connection! She lives in Tennessee, I live in Texas! We like the same things, we like to shop at the same places, we both love to cook, we both deal with similar things and we both are at very similar points in our walk with Christ and seem to be dealing with some of the same exact stuff.I have no doubt, no doubt at all that if Paula lived here, we would be the best of friends. We have decided that her little boy and my little girl would make a great couple someday and if we became family, we would see each other all the time! My husband has already told me we can go to Tennessee in the Spring and Paula has promised me she will come to Texas too! So, there is hope in sight!

I am constantly wishing Paula was here to cook with, shop with, pray with and hang out with all the time but she's not. The Lord has a plan, I have to trust that! This season I am in was always in His plan. I know that! And I am so thankful I have someone to talk to on the phone daily about silly stuff, important stuff and whatever else. Paula challenges me and makes me a better woman! This is a good kind of friend to have! If it wasn't for this silly little blogging thing, I never would have met my friend Paula!

I love you Paulie!

(Be sure and check out her blog. She is very inspiring and such a beautiful woman!)