I'm not sure what I'm doing with the blog thing. I don't know what or where i want to write. So today I'm hanging out at MAMA SINGS. :)

So I was talking to one of my very best friends today and I was explaining some struggles I'm having and some things I was feeling. She said something to me that I can't get out of my head, "You can't live in feelings. You have to seek the truth. You have to ask God to show you the TRUTH."

Okay so I know that but, today when she said it, it really hit me pretty hard. I am a woman and I "feel" a lot. I've made way too many decisions based on "feelings". I am constantly praying for TRUTH and today my truth telling friend helped me see a few things I need to really commit to praying about. I truly believe God will answer my prayer. But I need to be diligent in truly casting all of my cares upon Him instead of allowing my mind to carry them for me.

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Tomorrow morning I am singing one of my favorite worship songs. Well, it's probably number #1 on my list. A few nights ago I was on the worship program to sing something else but, I woke up in the middle of the night with this song playing loudly in my head. Thankfully I have become friends with the worship leader at our sponsor church so I sent him an email at 4:30am in the morning after trying to go back to sleep for an hour, and asked him if the band could switch songs. He said, "Yes." I know this song was in my head for a reason. I know it was for me and tomorrow I look forward to singing it for someone else. When the Holy Spirit wakes me in the middle of the night, it's ALWAYS for someone else. My prayer is that God can use me tomorrow to communicate what worship is all about.

It's all about you Jesus. I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it, when it's all about you. It's all about you Jesus.

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So guess what? Apparently their hiring DPS or DMV employees over at the library in Pflugerville, Texas!

When I walked into the library filled with Moms, babies, toddlers and old ladies, I felt refreshed. The little old ladies were smiling at the kids and Josiah was saying over and over again, "Mommy, I love the library! Let's get some Thomas The Train Books! And lets get some movies!" And let's not forget how great it feels to walk inside where it is COOL. The library seems to consistently be cold and cold is good when you've just unloaded three kids out of the car in triple digit weather. (I don't know if it really is triple digits today but it's hot, really hot!) So you get the point. Josiah is totally excited about the idea of picking out a pile of books to take home and a few movies, Ava Beth is excited about looking for a princess book and Ezekiel is sitting comfortably in the Baby Bjorn carrier I'm wearing. Not only am I wearing the Baby Bjorn, I am also wearing a pretty nice smile. I've been lazy this Summer so I did some research on books for the kids and some ways to help Josiah learn to read before starting kindergarten next year, so I head to the library. I'm feeling good as a Mom and proud that my kids are not watching Noggin at the moment! Instead, we're at the library and Barbara Bush would be so proud!

We have not made a library trip since moving here so, today was the day I needed to get my library card. Patiently I wait at the counter while the library employee scans books in that someone just returned. Finally she notices me and my heavenly library trip turns hellish!

Here's the script! (I'll just write it out like I would a drama so you can relive it with me.)


Characters: Library employee with really bad attitude
Mom with three kids who is happy to be at the library

Employee: (annoyed tone) Mam, is there something I can help you with?

Mom: (aware of employee being rude so trying to kill with kindness) Yes, (smiling) I just need to get a library card.

Employee: (really, really annoyed) well you need to fill out the application over here (pointing to her left).

Mom: Oh, okay. (walks over to application counter) ***can you believe there is an application counter??! SERIOUSLY! (after she finishes application, she walks back to the line.)

Employee: (takes application from mom's hand) Uhhh, I'm going to need to see your driver's license. (The Mom hands her the DL.) Uhhh, this is not the address you have written on the application.

Mom: (holding back the need to say "NO CRAP LADY!) Yes Mam, we moved here a few months ago and I have not had it changed yet.

Employee: Well, you do you have a utility bill with you?

Mom: (holding back the need to say "Yes, I carry those with me every where I go. Would you like to see the water bill, electric bill or phone bill?) No mam. (Mom's four year old child in the background begging for books) Do I have to have a bill with me to check out books today?

Employee: (now talking to Mom like she is stupid) Yes. You cannot check out books unless your license is correct or unless you have a bill with you to prove you live there.

(Mom's four year old now whining about not getting books and movies.)

Mom: (now mom is annoyed not with the stupid rule but more with the employee's rudeness) Your serious? (mom begins to put DL in back in wallet when all of the sudden, employees does the unthinkable)

Employee: (picks up application before Mom can put it away in diaper bag, holds it up in front of her face and rips it up.)

Mom: (STUNNED, totally STUNNED. And pissed!) Mam, why did you just rip up my application?

Employee: Well, I have to destroy it if you are not going to use it.

Mom: I spent time filling it out and I was going to bring it back tomorrow or Saturday. That was not very nice.

Employee: Sorry, you will have to fill out another one.

Mom: (the Mom has an Ally McBeal moment and envisions jumping over the counter to tackle the library employee but instead walks away and tells four year old that this library is not a very nice place. Son then asks if they can go back to the nice library at their old house. Then the Mom fights the urge to turn around and yell, "YOUR LIBRARY SUCKS!" But she doesn't. Instead, she gets into her car after loading up the three kids in triple digits and cries. Yep, she cries.)

The end

Okay, so seriously! This is how I expect o be treated at the DMV or the DPS but the LIBRARY? I understand there are rules okay? But isn't this the country that has a First Lady who has a platform relating to children getting books for free and doesn't she go around reading stories at Libraries and Schools and promoting early reading for kids?? She's a former librarian for crying out loud and she wants my children to read!! But today I got sent home! Have you seen the Soup Natzi on Seinfield??? Well, I think I met the Book Natzi today!

NO BOOKS FOR YOU!

Needless to say, the library trip sucked in every way so why not make the day better and go to Wal Mart? Hey, what the heck? That's where all the nice people hang out! HA! Let's unload three kids in triple digit, scorching hot weather one more time! After all, it would be a fast trip. I needed butter, milk, yogurt, cauliflower, broccoli, bananas, apples, glue sticks, stickers for a chore chart and re fried beans! How easy could it be?! Super easy, until Ava Beth starts eating yogurt in the cart! Who needs a spoon, right? I couldn't see her due to Ezekiel's car seat. Then it got worse when I began to self check and realized the apples I chose rang up at almost $2.00 a pound! And I bought a lot of Apples! But then a sweet cashier (which I usually have grumpy cashiers in Wal Mart and that's why I like to go to HEB Plus instead) tells me how she loves my hair and how much I look like PINK! She must have been talking about my ripped physique! Nope, it was the hair. :)

And now my little sweet dumplings are all sleeping...

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