Over the past few days, it has hit me! I am a mother of three children under the age of FOUR! Actually, Josiah JUST turned FOUR two weeks ago and Ava Beth turned TWO one month ago today. So they are FRESH under the age of four!

I have great kids, I really do. Josiah and Ava Beth have their days but for the most part I have wonderful, well mannered, "yes mam" and "no mam" kids (MOST DAYS). I am blessed, so blessed. However, recovering after baby Ezekiel is quite different than the other two. I still think the hardest thing ever was going from none to one. For all of you first time Moms trying to adjust, I've been there. It's hard! Then from one to two gets a little challenging also but sleep is still something you are able to work out. Three has not been too hard of an adjustment as far as the baby. He is easy and soooooooo good! But I can't really sleep when he sleeps, I have two others to take care of. Luckily Ava Beth takes three hour naps and Josiah JUST dropped his nap but he will happily watch a movie or play with trains if I need some sleep. I know the afternoons here will be one where the ringer is OFF, the computer is too and I try my hardest to rest instead of worrying about taking care of everything else around here.

And now I am rambling. I am probably not even making sense but for some reason writing on this blog makes me feel like I am normal and not in this sleep deprived newborn stage. Again, I can't tell you how blessed I am by Ezekiel. He is the first calm, go with the flow baby I have had! Third time IS a charm! For sure!

BUT, tomorrow I will be alone with the kiddos. All three of them will be in my care all day long and I will not have help. I am actually ready to face it though. Once I get it over with, I know I will feel better. Also tonight is the first night I will be taking care of Ezekiel all night by myself. Jeremy will be here but he has helped so much, worked so hard to take care of us this past week that he has got to rest before work tomorrow. So what I need is some supernatural strength and supernatural peace and a whole bunch else! The baby blues have snuck in from time to time. I miss being pregnant, I miss that the big event is over. I know it sounds weird to some of you but giving birth just supersedes everything in my life and I miss that day. I miss ALL of my children's BIRTH days. I don't know how to explain that feeling but I know many of you can relate.

Some of you have asked why he came a week earlier than expected. Nothing was wrong at all. I was up all night last Monday night with back pain that kept me from closing my eyes even once. My contractions were not regular but I was miserable. I called my Doctor at 6:30am Tuesday morning and he told me to come in AND he kept me. I was actually relieved because I felt so horrible. His birth was wonderful, everything was perfect. And I would do it ALL over again. But that would take a major act of God to get my husband to agree to a fourth child.

Ladies, I have felt your prayers in a major way. My body feels so much better, so much better. I am healing so quickly. I know your prayers WORK! Please keep 'em coming.

You bless me so much.